Last night, I went for a long, hard run. Running has really become a release of stress for me. I sort of lose myself through the movements. Once that first mile is done and I have pushed through the beginning pain and reached a steady breathing rate, my mind starts thinking. My mind does the clearest and best thinking after about the second or third mile.
Well, during my run yesterday, I began thinking about my future self. Where do I see myself? When I close my eyes, what do I picture my older self as? (No, I did not close my eyes on my run. Don’t worry!) As I ran, I drew up a picture of myself. I saw myself disciplined, dedicated….and in a suit. The particular image I drew up was that of me standing (in this suit) and staring out a window of an office. There was a view of a city. There are two things I know from this image. 1. I was no longer a teacher in an elementary school and 2. I was definitely no longer in small town middle of nowhere. Did I see myself with a husband and kids? Couldn’t tell you. That was the only image I drew up. Give me a month of runs and maybe I could tell you.
Now, I don’t know if this image came up in my head because those my main dreams and goals. Being in a city and having a job that changes the way things work. Who knows. But, that is how I saw my future self. This brings me to the concept of dreams. Yes, I have graduated college and landed a grown up job where I could be fine settling in for the rest of my life (although the anxiety levels are never fun). But, I have more dreams. There is nothing wrong with making new dreams. It gives us something to live for. Something to reach for. My philosophy is that if you don’t have a dream, you are settling. This imagining my future self thing was good for me. I am currently burnt out from graduate school, but when I saw that image, I wanted to push myself more to get this work done. I recommend you to try this. What do you see yourself as in five or ten years? If you can’t come up with an image, try just bringing up a picture of yourself. It’s interesting as to what you come up with. So, in the end. Be a dreamer. Not a settler.