Here in the United States, Halloween is coming. I have already been experiencing anxiety about this for a few reasons. 1. Halloween is a day were I would say people sort of “mock” the dead. They dress as skeletons, zombies, have coffins in their front yard, etc. It is truly a morbid holiday. For someone who is going through the grieving process, this holiday can easily trigger anxiety. For example, I just saw a fake coffin as a Halloween decoration. Yup, there was some PSTD there as I imagined my lifeless father’s body laying inside it. My brain immediately started screaming RUN at me. I am not looking forward to this day this year and am praying that I can get through it without getting angry at people portraying the dead and having some PSTD about my own grieving and personal experiences with death.
Reason number 2: After Halloween comes all the family holidays. Thanksgiving, Christmas, and New Years. Just thinking about these holidays this year makes me cringe. I have no idea where I even go to celebrate them, if I will celebrate them, and how to get past the pain of not having my loved ones to celebrate them with.
I know these coming months will be requiring many more therapy sessions for me as the holiday season is often very hard from someone who is mourning the loss of a loved one. If you are in the same spot is me, know that you are not alone. The holidays will be tough for us, but with support from others we can get through. We cannot do this alone. We must have support.