Positives Turned into Negatives


My nails are bitten down to nothing.  I haven’t chewed my nails in years.  I feast on sugary sweets.  I was all about eating healthy.  I haven’t worked out in months.  I used to work out every single evening.  I have to drink three to four traveling mugs of coffee to get me alert enough to work.  I used to only require one.  I go to bed at about 9:00 every night, or sometimes even earlier.  I used to be fine with going to bed at 11:00.  I can hardly make it through a whole day of teaching.  I used to be able to make in through weeks of teaching with no problem at all.  I used to be social.  I like to be by myself and large crowds make me angry and frustrated.

These are all signs to me at how bad I have gotten into my depression.  These signs show me that there is a problem that needs to be fixed.  For all my positives have turned into the negatives.  The complete opposites.  I suppose that is the major sign of depression.  I am trying to heal myself and working on turning all those negatives back into positives, but I suppose I can only do one of these at a time.  I am a work in progress.  In depression we have progress, but we also have setbacks.  I am most certainly on one of the setbacks.


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