Hello readers! I am back again. Things have been busy….busy…busy. I want to talk about the concept of abandonment today. It is something I talked to my sister about this weekend.
The other day, I found out that my second chapter of my thesis is error free and I am good to go for my last chapter. That means I am almost done! My sister and I celebrated this, then I got sad. I felt like I was supposed to call my father up and inform him about my accomplishment, but alas….I can’t do this or share this accomplishment with him. Both my mother and him would have been so proud of me. I can imagine the loving smiles they would give me as they express how proud they are of me. I told my sister about this and then she got sad. She said that she was talking to her husband about this just the other day.
I have decided to walk my masters graduation because so much hard work and time went into this degree. I need to celebrate my hard work. My sister was telling her husband how bad she feels for me. How I put so much work into this degree and it is such a big accomplishment, but only her and her husband will be there to see me get the degree. She felt horrible that I have only them to celebrate this accomplishment with.
I have thought about this, but always pushed it to the side. I try my hardest to not feel abandoned by all my friends and family. I push on through the pain to grow stronger than I ever was before. Sure, I will only have two people to celebrate my masters degree with. Sure, it will probably hurt me that day. But, I am strong and I am determined to get through it with a smile on my face because that is all that should be on my face when receiving this degree. It is a big accomplishment and I shouldn’t be sad just because everyone has left me.