I am slowly taking more strides towards loving myself again. There is slow progress, but I have definitely seen some progress. First, I am taking some time to do some things I love. I am reading again (after about a three month hiatus). I am currently working through The Husband’s Secret by Liane Moriarty. So far, it’s pretty good. I am back to doing some creative writing (you will be getting the first entry on my thriller within a week or so. So, be expecting that soon). I am taking some relaxing time every day now. Daily hot baths are my thing to relax before bed. It just helps me sleep better (combined with my sleeping pill). I am working towards my dream of getting a Ph.D. Currently, I am doing an application to Vanderbilt and it is ALMOST completed. That is quite exciting to me. I have caught up on some sleep. I had a three day weekend this weekend and slept for about 12 hours every day.
The last thing I am doing for myself is HUGE. This evening, I laced up my running shoes for the first time since my father died. A HUGE, HUGE, HUGE step for me. I got onto my treadmill (because I live in the tundra and it is too cold to run outside) and started running with loud music pounding in my ear. I managed to jog 2.5 miles and if felt pretty good. So, here is to hopefully taking care of myself and my health again. This was the first step. I just have to try to continue taking care of my mind and body. Once I get there again, I will probably love myself a little bit more.