I was just told by my sister that she has noticed a change in my laugh. Like it is more forced now. It isn’t my usual laugh, and she doesn’t really care for it.
My laugh has always been something I hated about myself because it is very overbearing and loud. This comment only makes me hate my laugh more. I know she didn’t mean for this to be hurtful, but for some reason the comment cuts me like a knife. I asked her when she noticed the change. She told me it was this summer. Right before school started. That is exactly when I was diagnosed with clinical depression and put on depression medication.
I suppose my laughter is more forced because I don’t find much to laugh about. I haven’t experience “true” laughter in quite a long time. So, I suppose my laughter has changed and become more forced.
I just have to get this off my chest. Again, I know this comment wasn’t meant to hurt me. But, my depression has really made my self-worth and self-image plummet. So, this comment really cut right to my heart.