It’s me, your daughter. You know everything about me. Every thought. Every feeling. Every emotion. Every heartbreak. Every breath. Every plan. Every dream. In fact, you know me better than I know myself. You know how much I grieve over the loss of my parents and how much I slip into depression modes on some days. I know you don’t like it when I go to that “dark” place because you think the total opposite. You think I am beautiful. You think I am worth loving. You think I am intelligent. You created me, so you love me more than I could ever love myself. Sometimes I have a hard time loving myself. Right now, and for the past year, I don’t love myself. But, I should because you have created me in all your glory. For that, I am sorry.
God, my parents are with you right now. Please say hello to them for me and tell them I love them. Give them both tight hugs for me and tell them how awesome they did raising me to live by your word and light. How amazing they were for showing me who you are. Give them some high-fives because I truly believe that in the short time they had with me they did an amazing job. They were amazing people and you gave me the best parents possible. Thank you for that. And thank you for giving me the time I had with them.
You know that my sister has been sick lately. You also know how much I rely on her and love her. She is like the mother I don’t have anymore and has been for 10 years. I love her so much and appreciate everything she did to help me make it through my teenage years. God, please help her during her sickness. Help her find healing and peace. I know she is in pain. Please take care of her and help her feel your love and grace. She is all I have left now and I don’t know what I would do if I lost her as well.
You also know how lonely I have been. I have been trying to grow closer to you in my loneliness. Wherever you take me next, please let me form a lasting relationship with someone in which true love is developed and exchanged. I am just so sick of getting hurt, let down, and used.
I love you God and you have been extremely good to me. I am truly blessed with all you have given me. I am thankful for all my failures and successes. I am thankful for the love you have for me. You are always there for me when no one else is. For that, I am beyond thankful.
Your Blessed Daughter