First, I really, really, really want to thank the amazing blogger, His Temple. This blogger helped me get the courage to bite back on depression when it is too busy biting me.
I want to tell you all that I am being courageous today because of this blogger. After reading her comments on my last blog post, I thought to myself, “You know what…I don’t deserve this at all. God loves me. And God wouldn’t want me to feel this way about myself. I need to cure myself. I NEED TO KEEP FIGHTING! I CAN’T GIVE IN TO WHAT MY HEAD TELLS ME!” So, I am biting the bullet today……I am going to my childhood home.
In a few hours, I will be pulling into the farm I grew up at. The excuse is to get some toys I need for a student of mine. I am also going to grab any and all pictures I can find of my parents. I am going to take them all back to my apartment tonight, spread them out on my floor and study them. I might laugh, cry, etc. But, I think it’s time I do this. I need to remember my parents for who they were and how much I loved them. Not for how much I miss them and struggle without them here with me.