Update/Thank You


I want to check in with all of you.  I feel like I owe it to you for all the wonderful prayers and thoughts you have been sending my way.  I can’t thank you enough for these.  They mean so much to me as I continue to get through this.  Jesus has certainly heard your prayers and is guiding me through this.  I can almost sense His palm on my back as He pushes me through this and tells me that this isn’t what my life will be like forever.  That I won’t be this lonely forever.  That this is just the storm leading to His wonderful plan for me.  So, again…thank you so much for all your prayers and thoughts.  I assure you that they are working and filling me with hope as you all assure me that I am surely needed and wanted in this world.  Thank you for that.  You are all AMAZING.  ❤ ❤ ❤

I don’t have much of anything else to post here.  My mind is sort of a blank today.  So, I just figured I will update you.  I am very exhausted.  I started a Bible study tonight on overcoming fear to live out God’s plan for my life.  It is most certainly what I need right now.  I did get my workout in tonight.  I pushed myself to go 3 miles.  I haven’t gone that far in a VERY long time.  When I got off the treadmill, I could hardly walk.  So, I laid down on my floor and then did my stretches.  I will have a hard time walking tomorrow, but the pain from the workout was what I needed.  I needed to push through these feelings and feel that pain.  Now, I am so exhausted that maybe I will have a deep no-nightmare sleep tonight.

I also started going through the tote of family pictures.  Feelings of love and comfort come to me when I see me with my mom and dad when I was a baby or little girl.  Other pictures, particularly of my mother, made me remember how much I miss them/how much my heart yearns for them.  I stopped looking at the pictures when I could feel slow tears forming in my eyes.  I suppose I should peel off that bandaid a little at a time.

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  1. oh my gosh! 3 miles on the treadmill – girl – that is my M.O. I feel like if I have gone three miles I have kicked some boooo-tay! AND a bible study on fear is so great! I seriously need that. There is so much I want to do if I could just overcome fear. Honestly, I would rather overcome that than alcohol. Just saying. Are you doing your own study or going by a lesson plan or book?

    1. It’s actually a daily devotional study that has something for every day of the year. It is called Unafraid by Gracie Malone. It is phenomenal so far. Each entry has a bible verse on overcoming fear and then an entry that goes into further detail. I love it so far. Tonight, I am planning on posting a little entry about today’s study I did this morning.

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