Hello again. I am popping in for my update with you all. I slept VERY good last night. A few things contributed to this. 1. It is extremely cold where I live and my apartment heat just won’t keep up without making my heating bill go through the roof. So, more blankets went on my bed. I think the heaviness of all the blankets helped me sleep harder and deeper. 2. I was exhausted. The exhausting exercise helped with this. I did have a dream, but this one was actually a GOOD one. So there is is some progress being made there.
I am currently trying VERY, VERY hard to get over my loss of friendships. I don’t know why this bothers me so much when I have truly forgiven the people for the hurt. I think most of it is because I want to know why. Why I deserved what happened to me. Why I deserve to be left alone. What I did to make them hate me so. What I did to make them to forget me so easily. And most importantly, why they left me. I want to come right out and ask these people these questions. Thinking that that may just be the answer I need to heal and get over this abandonment. But, I think that would just open a can of worms. I really don’t know. I just need to get over it. I just don’t know how.