Thank you all for you continued support. It means so much to me.
After writing that first entry today, I cried for a little while and then decided I needed to do something to work out my grief and depressive thoughts. So, I got busy cleaning. I cleaned everything there is to clean in my apartment. I also rearranged my bedroom, put on new bedding, played around with essential oils to make the apartment smell relaxing and fresh, and worked on making a donation pile/throwing away things I no longer use or haven’t used in a very long time. Tell you what, if you are EVER in a bad mood, just start throwing away stuff you no longer need or work on rearranging your living area. I have been working since 9:00 am and wow…I feel amazing and accomplished. Throwing/making a pile for donating somehow cheered me up. As did rearranging my bedroom. I felt like I was making a new life as I threw away my old life. I may have gone overboard, but you know what…I feel great after throwing away 4 GARAGE BAGS and packing one HEAPING laundry basket of donations.
I decided I wasn’t done after I cleaned/threw away things. So, I hit the treadmill (as it is -20+ here today) and went 2.5 miles. I am going to close out the day by taking a nice long bath while reading a novel. After that, I will go straight to bed to read more or catch up on my latest addiction (Oregon Trail: American Settler).
In conclusion to my rambling, I learned two things today. 1. Cleaning cheers me up. I took out my anger on my scrubbing and throwing things in garbage bags. 2. Rearranging a room also makes me feel better. I don’t know if it is the moving of heavy furniture or what, but there was a MAJOR mood change as the day went on.