Carry Me


As you, my lovely followers/readers, know the past week has been horribly difficult for me.  There has been LOTS of crying and I am just sick of the tears and constant blood shot/dry eyes.  I have therapy today and there will be a lot to talk about.  I will also be getting in to see the psychiatrist for a medication assessment of my depression/anxiety/insomnia medications.

I have been terrified this week and wanting to give it all up.  Cutting thoughts also came back to me.  But, a LOVELY and AMAZING blogger has been contacting me and those thoughts were put to a stop.  Had I not had a conversation with this blogger that night, I may have ended up cutting.  So, thank you to this blogger.  You know who you are! 🙂

Anyways, I was listening to The Message (a Christian station on XM radio) this week to get a glimmer of hope and renew/refresh my soul.  This song played and was exactly what I needed to hear.  As I listened, I realized that I am the person this song is about. I am the one stuck in the valley of death.  I am in sinking sand.  I’m sure many of you lovely readers are the same.  If you need some hope and feel stuck like me, give this song a listen.  It is called Carry Me by Josh Wilson.  Here are the lyrics for you to analyze:

“Carry Me”

I try to catch my breath
It hasn’t happened yet
I’m wide awake in the middle of the night scared to death
So I prayed God, would You make this stop
Father please hold on to me, You’re all I’ve got

Carry me, carry me, carry me now
From my sinking sand to Your solid ground
The only way I’m ever gonna make it out
Is if You carry me, carry me, carry me now
God carry me, carry me, carry me now

Jesus calm my heart
Come near me please
Lord don’t let these worries get the best of me
Oh I believe, that You’re still here with me
Cause You meant what You said when You said You’d never leave

Carry me, carry me, carry me now
From my sinking sand to Your solid ground
The only way I’m ever gonna make it out
Is if You carry me, carry me, carry me now
God carry me, carry me, carry me now

Carry me
God carry me
Carry me
God carry me

I’m at the end of myself
I know I’ve got nothing left
Feels like I’m stuck in the valley of the shadow of death
And I’ve been down here so long
I just can’t find my way out
Oh God I don’t stand a chance
Unless You carry me now
God carry me now

Carry me, carry me, carry me now
From my sinking sand to Your solid ground
The only way I’m ever gonna make it out
Is if You carry me, carry me, carry me now
God carry me, carry me, carry me now

Carry me now
Carry me now
Carry me now
Carry me now

 

 

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  1. What I admire about you is that you are not afraid to dig and ask yourself those questions that help you figure out what makes you feel better… And you’re open to trying new things! The week is almost over, we can do it…

      1. Yes, I do believe new memories will help! My therapist shared some research with me about overcoming my nightmares. You are supposed to take your nightmare and continue it, but end it with something good and positive. Basically, take it from bad and turn it to good. Then, before bed repeat the good dream in your head. Apparently, this will help the reduce nightmares.

  2. You’re stronger than you know. Keep fighting, keep trying. You’ll get through this. Your track record for survival is 100%…thats pretty damn good. You got a master’s despite all odds against you. That alone speaks volumes of your strength. I’m here for you, we all are. Lean on us while you’re weak, as we will lean on you when we are. We are your rock through every storm. You’ve lost everyone as you say, but you haven’t lost us, your readers. We’ll follow you through anything. Take care of yourself. We need you as you need us.

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