In a discussion with another amazing blogger via email, I have decided that in order to get “better” and fight this battle with depression I need to remove all toxicness and possible depression triggers from my life. So, I have been hard at work with this.
First, I deeply analyzed my relationship with this friend I have been blogging about lately. This blogger put the relationship into perspective for me. She told me that I deserve to be selfish right now and I need to do whatever will help me make it to tomorrow. I thought long and hard as I asked myself, “what do I feel when I see this certain person’s name come up on my phone?” My answer: anxiety. I get a tightness in my stomach. That tightness is anxiety, as well as a little pain. That probably shouldn’t be there when you are talking to a friend. So, I deemed this relationship as toxic and cut it off. It is done. It is time for me to move on from it. It is time for me to make more meaningful friendships.
Second, I looked at my health. I downloaded the MyPlate app and have been tracking exercise, calories, and water consumption. This app has been really motivating to me. If you ever want to see just what you eat, try logging it down for a day. It’s really eye opening. I have also been making healthier choices about what I am eating.
Additionally, I paid my first visit to the chiropractor today. She worked on me for about 45 minutes and I am now back into alignment. I feel better and able to do more during my workouts.
Finally, I have deemed my job as toxic. It isn’t the students, but the people I work with. Therefore, I will be leaving when my contract is up in May. The decision is made.
In the end, removing toxicness from my life is only a step in fighting depression. I feel better making some of these changes and less “bogged down.” It is actually quite freeing. So, my challenge to you is this: Remove at least one toxic thing from your life. I promise that it will help you feel a little bit better.
PS. My blog has been nominated for two more awards. It is taking me some time to get to those entries, but I promise I will get them. I appreciate everyone who has nominated me! It means so much to me that you support me, as well as this blog. ❤