Look in the Mirror and LOVE Yourself

When you look in the mirror and for the first time in your entire life, LOVE what you see.

True story: My self image has always been low. I always perceived myself as “fat” and “ugly” and “unlovable.” All my work on personal development, fitness, and nutrition this year has changed this view. I now see myself as STRONG, BEAUTIFUL, AND LOVED. Why?!??? Because God has created me to be that way and He gave me my story to be beautifully unique. And He has done that for you too! ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤

Keep it positive peeps!  Love Ya’ll! ❤ ❤ ❤ me55



Hello all!  I know that it’s been fooooorrrrrevvvvverrrrrrr since I’ve been here!  I am busy working on some exciting things with my own business and am super excited to tell you about it!

If you are new here, welcome!  Little update for you, I am overcoming grief, anxiety, depression, and a an eating disorder through a fitness/personal development program.  I know many of you are in the same boat I am and my heart goes out to you.  I love ya’ll so much and want to tell you that yes, those things are horrible and heart wrenching, BUT it is possible to overcome.  I never ever thought I would come out of that dark place.  I was pretty sure that one day I would have ended it all.  My heart, soul, and body have become renewed over this year.  I have shed 60 pounds and learned to love myself, find purpose, control my eating disorder, and stop blaming myself for what has happened in the past.  I have accepted my story completely and am now out to use it to help others who are/were in the same situation as me.  Check out my progress below! That is from January of this year to this month!



Crazy right?!?!!?!?!  Anyways….Right now, I am searching high and low for new tribe members who want to join me in my journey and business!  So…here is my announcement!  You ready?!?!?!? Here goes!!!!

I am in the works of opening a depression, anxiety, eating disorders, and grief only support group where we work TOGETHER on managing our depression, anxiety, depression, eating disorders, and grief through personal development, nutrition, and fitness.  This is aimed at being a support group that comes to you in the comforts of your home.  The goal of this is that it is for you and lead by someone that has personally been there.  While going through my journey, I wanted someone that personally went through what I did.  I found some amazing people through this very blog!  I want to be that person for YOU!  I want to help YOU overcome.  Because you know what, you CAN OVERCOME!

Interested?  Curious?  Drop me an awesomesauce comment and I’ll get back to you ASAP!  Love Ya’ll and remember… YOU’VE GOT THIS!!! ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤

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Transformation Tuesday!


A little over two years ago, my life was changed forever when my father passed away. My world was shaken and I endured a long period of grief, anxiety, and depression. I was formally diagnosed with anxiety, depression, insomnia, and an eating disorder. I had also gained 70+ pounds in a year and a half. In January, I decided to not let everything that ever happened to me define me. I got the bravery to reach out to a close friend/coworker for help in taking back my life. Since then, my life has been changed. I am positive and I have come out a million times stronger and more confident than I was. In only 5 months, I had dropped 55 pounds and taken the steps in becoming the woman God has designed me to be. My weekly therapy visits became only once in 6 months. I was also completely taken off one of my three depression/anxiety/insomnia meds. I am no longer ashamed of my story and want to tell you that it IS POSSIBLE. YOU CAN OVERCOME! And you are WORTH overcoming!


Until Next Time- Keep it Positive Peeps! ❤ ❤ ❤

Letter To The Girl Struggling To Lose Weight


Hey girl!

Sure, you wanted to eat that entire box of doughnuts followed by that ice cream.  And maybe a few days before, you had some pizza.  Or you ate that entire candy bar and then had carbs the rest of the day.   Yes, we all get those binges especially….shall I say it???!?!?! Heck, why not……if we are PMSing.  Yes, that lovely time of the month where you want to punch everyone around you and just curl up with ice cream, chocolate, and pizza.

When we put the food that falls under a “thou shall not eat” category in our mouth, we have the tendency to self-loath.  After one bite, we call ourselves, fat, unworthy, ugly, worthless, a failure, etc.  Then, we convince ourselves that we have ruined all progress, so we should just finish the entire thing.  Here is where I am going to get real with you ladies.  ONE BITE will not make us FAT (insert side tangent here——–> no one IS fat.  Just like a patient with heart disease IS NOT heart disease.  It’s something we have.  We HAVE fat.  We HAVE heart disease, etc.  So, we need to stop calling ourselves FAT.  Ok…end side tangent).

One “bad day” will not lose all the progress we have made.  One “bad month” is not an excuse to keep having “bad months” until we have a “bad year.”  One decision does not define us.

Here’s the thing ladies….we are all capable of being the best that we can be.  YOU…yes YOU, are capable of doing this.  Maybe you need some time off to rest and figure out this whole life thing.  Sure, take the time.  But, DO NOT make it a habit.  You are so worth becoming your best self.  You are worth loving your body inside and out.  You are worth loving your life.  You don’t have to start with running 5 miles a day.  Instead, start small.  Find some form of movement that YOU LIKE.  Exercise doesn’t have to kill you!  Make it fun and you won’t even feel like you are working out!  Once you get moving, you will realize that you are so worth it.


Girl, I said it before and I will say it again, YOU ARE WORTH IT!  Tell yourself that every single freaking day.  Write it in giant letters on your mirror.  Keep telling yourself it every 5 minutes, even if you don’t believe it at first.  After all, if you tell yourself it enough, you will end up believing it.  That is the beauty of human nature.  You just need to convince yourself.

So, stand up and shout it: YOU ARE WORTH IT!!!!! I didn’t hear you!  Say it again! YOU ARE WORTH IT!


You are worth taking on this battle, and you CAN DO IT!  Take out your favorite music or audio book and get moving!

Remember that you are beautiful no matter what.  You can take on this journey.  Because you are so worth it.  Now, go get moving girl and stop the self loathing!  What are you waiting for! There is no better day than today!  🙂

❤ ❤ ❤

-Until Next Time- Keep it Positive Peeps!


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10 Real Thoughts You Get When You Start A Fitness Journey

Let’s face it, when we start a fitness journey we get some pretty funny thoughts that come to us.  It’s a struggle, that’s for sure.  Below is a list of 10 real thoughts we all get when we start a fitness journey. Have you joined the fitness newbie struggle bus and had any of these thoughts? I know I have!

1. Everything hurts and I’m dying.

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2. This gluten free bread tastes like cardboard.

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I’d die for a cheeseburger and fries right now.

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How does she do that?!?!?!?!?!??  That’s not even possible!

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I have no idea what I am doing.

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Screw it!

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Pretend this vegetable is a doughnut….this vegetable is a doughnut…this vegetable is a doughnut….

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I’m not even going to attempt those stairs.

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Someone is going to have to help me up.

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I think I’ll do it all over again tomorrow.

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Upgrade To A Healthier Life, Upgrade Blog!

Hello all!  Wonderful news for all you faithful followers!  As of today, I have upgraded my blog to the premium plan!  That’s right!  This girl is going kicking and screaming into the freelance blogging world!

Recently, I have been looking at freelance writing jobs to help support myself as a ph.d student.  Honestly peeps….it’s been hard financially.  My education does not allow me to hold a full time job and my graduate assistantship job does not pay enough to even cover my rent.  Things are getting extremely tight for me budget wise.  Just like every other college student out there, I am seeing my student loan debt increase and live in a fear of having to start paying it back…..eeeeeeekkkk nightmare right there.

Back to the freelance writing thing….I have been researching and researching and researching freelance writing that I can do on the side to provide some income to make rent.  I looked into ghost writing (pssstt…..authors out there!  If you are looking for a ghost writer, hit me up!  Totally willing to help out!  I am extremely interested in this and would love to be able to do some creative writing typing to take my mind of academics.  I have a journalism background and LOTS of experience in writing up manuscripts! Check out my “Contact Me” page for contact information).  I looked into websites where I can freelance write.   To my dismay, nothing out there seemed legit to me.  Therefore, I decided to just try through my blog.  No harm in trying right?  Never say never!

As my life is upgrading to a more healthy and fit one, I decided to upgrade this blog as well.  You may be sitting there thinking, “Great……ANOTHER fitness blog!).  Sorry friends, but you are wrong there.  This is not just another fitness blog.  This blog is sort of an everything blog.  You may hear about fitness.  You will also hear about other things.  But, the focus is all about dealing with depression, anxiety, grief, PTSD, and eating disorders.  As I endure/d these personally, I want to reach out and help all of you who are also going through this.  It is not easy.  You do feel alone.  So alone.  I want to be your person.  I want to help you and prevent what happened to me when no one reached out to help me.  I want to be your friend.  I believe in you and through this blog, I will help you believe in yourself! ❤ ❤ ❤

I will be blogging WEEKLY now!  YAYAYAYAYYAYAAYAYAYAYAY!!!!! <—–Insert cartwheels here.  I promise that blogs will be coming weekly.  Time is set aside each week to write or vlog for you….yes, I did say “vlog!”  So, make sure to watch for those.  And as always, don’t hesitate to like, comment, or email me!

Thank you so much for your support, likes, comments, and just for being you!

Until next time- Keep it positive peeps!


Top 10 Tips for Weight Loss

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Losing nearly 60 pounds since January has been life changing. This journey has taught me so much about health, fitness, and wellness.  I could not be more grateful for what I have learned.  As I reach my 60 pounds down milestone, I wanted to share with you some of the top tips for weight loss that I have discovered.  So, below I have included the top 10 tips that have revolutionized my weight loss journey.  Enjoy!

  1. Water, water, water, water…..water is everything!  Drink at least half you weight in ounces each day!
  2. You don’t need to eat all those snacks.  Go back to just eating three meals a day.  6 “meals” a day is not what our bodies were designed to handle.  Three meals a day, with time between each meal, gives your body time to fully digest the last meal you ate.
  3. Close the kitchen at night.  Stop eating 2-3 hours before bed.
  4. Figure out what your “power hour” is.  This is the hour that you are the most productive and have the most energy.  It is during this time that you get the most out of your workouts.  If you can, schedule your workouts during that power hour.
  5. Ditch the sugars.
  6. Get those workouts in.  You don’t have to do intense cardio every single day.  Just get moving!
  7. Learn how to listen to your body.  Listen to how it feels during workouts and after eating certain foods.  If a food doesn’t make you feel good, that’s a sign.  Ditch that food.  Our bodies tell us a lot during the day.  We just have to learn how to listen to it.
  8. Get your sleep.  Sleep is extremely important for wellness.  You can’t be your best unless you are well rested.
  9. Don’t give up.  Progress takes time.  I really didn’t start noticing a difference until about a month in.  Give it at least 3 weeks.
  10. You can do it!  Positive mindset is everything.  If we tell ourselves things that are negative, we start to believe it.  Don’t be the Little Engine That Could with “I think I cans.”  Instead, tell yourself that “you know you can.”  Instead of “if I lose the weight” tell yourself “WHEN I lose the weight.”  Make it a reality.


Until next time- Keep it positive peeps! 🙂

Positive Changes Inside and Out

Hello all!  I know, I’ve been MIA for like 5 months.  I have been extremely busy with the ph.d/working on me.   And honestly…I am doing so much academic writing that the last thing I want to do is write.  But, I am here to fill you in!  These past 5 months have been critical for me.  Let me share with you what has happened.

I started Beachbody and a virtual gym accountability group that a co-phd student/friend of mine coached.  I’ve been doing Beachbody workouts and eating clean for 5 months now.  I am down 53 pounds and have lost over 30 inches off my entire body.  Seriously!?!?!? Seriously…..  Check out the difference.

Crazy isn’t it?!?!?!!?!!?!?! I’ve dropped sizes in clothes and skyrocketed in confidence.  You guys, I am actually truly happy again.  I have actual hobbies again.  My depression is completely gone.  I have made peace with my past and the hurts that were there.  That pain no longer exists.  How did I do this?  Let me tell you!

Part of my Beachbody experience is that of doing 1 hour of personal development a day.  The philosophy is that you can’t change the outside if you don’t change the inside.  It’s true.  So true.  So, everyday I listened to Chalene Johnson’s podcasts, The Chalene Show <—– Can be found on iTunes.  I did this as I got ready in the morning, or during my morning commute.  I became obsessed because her advice on healing past hurts worked.  I endured some hard core reflections as I listened to her and found out so much about myself.  I realized the amount of strength I have and came to the conclusion that I shouldn’t be ashamed of my past.  I should own it because you know what?  It’s my story that I need to share so that it can help others.  So, owning my past I am.  I also no longer care what others think about me.  I am me.  I am unique.  I am designed by God’s plan and doing his works.  So, why should I care what other people think?  I shouldn’t.  So, I don’t.  I have also switched to turning to fitness and hobbies instead of food to regulate my emotions.  This is a huge success for me!

I am so excited to see where Beachbody takes me.  I can’t wait to see myself reach my weight loss goal and to continue getting healthy on the inside and out.  I am loving this process and would love for you to come on it with me.  Are you ready to make some changes?  Are you ready to move on with your life?  Talk to me, and I’ll get you hooked up! 🙂  You won’t regret it!

Love ya all like crazy!  Stay positive peeps!  ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤

Takin’ Back Life: Challenge for You/Me

Hello from Tennessee!  I am back and getting ready for the semester to start.  It is nice to be back home.  An update for you on changes I have made to my life.  I have started the Core De Force workouts and 21 Day Fix eating plan.  I feel so much better now that I am getting exercise and nutrition again.  After each workout (which is built on the foundations of MMA), I feel more alive.  I feel like I am beating up my depression.  It feels great.  I have already lost weight and am toning up.  I can’t wait to see where this takes me.  My Beach Body coach has entered me into her year fitness challenge/program, so I get a whole year dedicated to hardcore workouts.  She has seen her program decrease depression symptoms and help eating disorders.  I am ready to change this part of my life.  I am sick to the depression, not wanting to get out of bed, and suicidal thoughts.  It is time to take back my life.


For my fellow followers who also have issues with depression, grief, anxiety, and eating disorders, I want to help you this year as I help myself.  Let’s make this the year we learn to fight back from our mental disorder even harder.  Let’s punch it in the face and knock it down with all we have.  Sure, it will win some days, but let’s fight it with all our might.


My first challenge for you is to find an exercise you love.  Something that is fun and you want to do it.  Walk in the park, take up boxing, go skiing, etc.  Try something new.  Yes, it is hard to take that first step and find something.  But, force yourself to do it.  I promise there will be some good benefits.  Since I have started MMA workouts, I have noticed a decrease in my depression symptoms.  It works.  Take the first step and challenge yourself to try something.


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